The other night Jason asked if I had any new blog posts coming up, and all I could think was, "..."

Life for me has been a mindless routine lately, a lot of Get up, Get Reed to school, Clean kitchen, Do laundry, Apply for jobs, Dinner, Get Reed ready for bed, Mess around for a while, Go to bed.

I've been unemployed for just over 4 months now, I've applied for lots and lots of jobs in lots of different fields, and I haven't had a single interview.

Today I'm feeling just a bit discouraged and pessimistic. It's dramatic to say, but I've been constantly haunted lately by decisions, bad and good, mine and those of others, and how they've changed our lives in the past couple of years. I'm having a lot of nightmares, not sleeping well, feeling anxious and pukey, stuck, impotent. The logical part of me knows that things will change, get better, but there's still a tiny part of me that just can't see out of this right now.

Anyway, there's my magical post for today. We're headed to Mobile to photograph a wedding at the end of this month, and I'm looking forward to getting out of town for a couple of days. Perhaps I'll be able to clear my head a bit then.